god
whenever a close friend is being angry or sad my first reaction is
“oh no
what did i do
i did something didn’t i
oh man”
and i just freak out and start apologizing all over the place
it’s not a pretty sight

Internalized guilt tripping is one thing but it just pisses me off to no end when other people do it. Especially my mom.

I really wish I didn’t need someone paying attention to me all the time in order to feel validated!! I mean

It’s really not a good thing and I’m probably really bothering everyone and I hate to think that they don’t like me
Bad feels

Wow okay
Aagh the fact that my friends (my close ones that I really love anyway) pretty much accept me as trans* right away and were really great about the whole thing
Even the ones that don’t know a whooole lot about stuff like that are pretty much
“oh well who am I to stop you from being happy” and they call me my preferred name and pronouns,
it just makes me really really happy
I’m so doki for my friends jeez (◕‿◕❃)